Issue 2: embodied

TGTg as a means of movement

meryem yildiz

i don’t really want three breakfast sandwiches at two p.m. on a tuesday afternoon, but an excuse to step outside after days of enclosure is a blessing, not a disguise. i pay a small price to reduce food waste and feel the autumn air on my skin. a leaf sticks onto the sole of my boot—the physical manifestation of the soul of the tree that carries me forward, step by step, to the couche-tard down the road. i don’t really want three breakfast sandwiches at two p.m. on a tuesday afternoon, but i am connected to the convenience store by proximity and a shared goal of sustainability, and in that pretext is the assurance of aliveness after a week of deadness. look, i feel empowered to take action by saving perfectly good food from ending up in the trash, by which case i also mean myself—i am taking myself out of the bin, i am saving myself from ruin.

Panacea

Meryem Yildiz

if i could breathe five mississippis / if i could turn my tongue seven thousand times / before sneaking / before suspicions / if i could bow my head to my knees and sigh between my thighs / if i could sway with petty fated leaves instead of hanging onto their stems / for dear life / if i could hug the bush, the thorns / if i could harvest rosehip and marjoram / if in the hollow of my waist i could loosen you up / unravel your grip / if i could stiffen to soften / if i could twist the spindle of your spine to straighten mine / if i could grow spring inside the jet-black torrent of my dead dark hair / if i could, i would / drink it up, if i could / drink it all, and look / beyond the realm of possibility / look / sometimes it’s the only way / to call it / relief

Meryem Yildiz is a poet born and based in Tiohtià:ke (Montreal). Her work has appeared in The Malahat Review, Acta Victoriana, carte blanche, yolk, and elsewhere. In 2022, she won The Malahat Review’s Far Horizons Award for Poetry as well as the QWF’s carte blanche Prize. Her debut collection will be published by Guernica Editions in 2025.

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