Issue 2: embodied
home body
leighton Schreyer
Look, but don’t touch, he reminds us
as we crowd greedily around the nest.
And the lights should be?
Off, we say together,
extinguishing the fire
of our flashlights.
And why is that? he asks.
So they don’t get confused, A. answers.
That’s right, he nods, raising
a hand to quiet the class. A quiver
of life pulses beneath the surface
of the sand and we grow
silent for a second—
stand, rapt in awe,
as tiny noses nudge forth. They emerge
shell-shocked, the turtles, shells still soft,
mere shadows of the night.
I can’t help
but bounce forward, fingers poised
like the claw of a claw machine
over a tiny turtle’s back when it starts
trailing behind, turning circles
in the sand before I stop myself.
It’s painful to watch; the hatchlings struggle
to move forward fast enough
to catch the teasing tide. Still,
I stay as, one-by-one, the others lose
interest and head back to bed.
In 20 years, we were told,
the turtles will return
to this very beach to lay their own eggs.
How do they know? I ask when the waves swallow
the last turtle whole. How do they find their way
back, I mean? Home, I want to say.
He looks at me for a long while, searching
my face for the answer, trying to decipher
how much to say; stops
himself from delving into the physics
behind such a miraculous feat,
knowing full-well
it will go over my head—something about
magnetic fields and flux and signatures
of the sort. He chooses
his words carefully then.
The body knows, he says simply,
if you learn to listen.
Leighton Schreyer (they/them) is a writer, poet, and critically Mad queer activist in Toronto, ON, whose writing often explores themes of gender, sexuality, mental health, and the human condition. Their work has been featured in some of the world’s leading medical and literary journals, including The Sun, The New England Journal of Medicine, Journal of the American Medical Association, Hippocampus Magazine, Redivider, and more. Their writing has been nominated for The Pushcart Prize. As a current medical student, Leighton is passionate about recentering the fundamental role that story plays in healthcare and caregiving.